Run Baby Run.

Mood: Mild.
Music: "Inner Universe" - Yoko Kanno

Nothing too interesting has been going on as of late. Thank God.

Dylan's never speaking to me again and I don't think I care. It's his fault he's being ludicrous. I told him once that I didn't like him talking to me while he was on 'gens, and he interpreted that as "WELL LOL FINE U DUN'T 'STAND MEH MMKAY BAI".
Ha.
And he told me that HE was disappointed.
How fucking ludicrous.

Anyways.

Need to read more. Kind of sad about that. I'm actually reading Panic In Level 4, bu Richard Preston (yeah Travis, The Hot Zone guy), and I've only read a little bit of the introduction and... yeah. I am fairly amazed.

For a friend's sake, I need to start looking for pictures/videos of my old kitties. D: Pumpkin and Doodle and whatnot.

Jasmine's been going through quite a bit of shit lately; the first letter I sent apparently won't reach her because she's moved (under horribly circumstances), so I'm writing her a second one and will be sending it on its merry way tomorrow morning. Poor Jas. Upset I won't see her this Christmas, but that's alright... at least she'll get my shoebox.
Speaking of that, I need to go out and get myself a disposable camera. I'm getting all creative with the contents, and I think some random pictures might do her some good.

As far as how I'm doing, I've been doing just fine. Ian and I spent the entire afternoon together yesterday for the first time in over a week or so, and it was just bloody amazing. I appreciated it like mad.

Sleeping schedule is off the wall. Will need to fix it.
And I have some stuff that I want to finish for BCIS so I don't have to do it tomorrow. So lame... I don't want to have to work, go to a piano lesson, AND write a research paper.

Hot damn.

One Last Appeal.

Music: "Stop and Stare" - One Republic
Mood: Blank

Wow.
It has been a while since I've been this angry at so many things all at once.

"Go nowhere."
A fucking motto I've adopted, no doubt.

What Can Be Linked

Mood: Sleepy as Fuck.
Music: "Inner Universe" - Yoko Kanno

Summer school started today.
Seemed too early, lasted too long, etcetera. Chelsy's elder sister is in my class, to my pleasant surprise. Hooray. Easy class work... wrote a poem about ourselves (I guess you can call that breaking the ice?), history of computer technology, blah blah. Nothing thoroughly interesting.

Only saw Ian for about fifteen or twenty minutes. It made me a little sad.

Got my textbook issue figured out. Almost cried. Bastard Stanley man.

Anyways, I'm extremely exhausted.
So, the rest of the day will consist of naps, Vampire Hunter D , and possibly Franz Kafka. Throw in a hint of Alfred Hitchcock and Twilight Zone, and you might have a quasi-peaceful Anatha. Not really, though. I'm unusually restless these days.

Travis and I may be getting together this Thursday... I'm kind of looking forward to.

All That You're Feeling Inside

Mood: Nigh-Monosyllabic
Music: "Half a Person" - The Smiths

Doomed to estrangement, is all.

Anyways, today was fairly lackluster... clouded with the price of insomnia, no doubt.
My fault, though.

Nothing too interesting is going to happen this week. Summer school starts tomorrow, and it'll be a rude interruption in my sleeping schedule. It's going to be fairly nasty. Academically easy as hell but nasty and tiring (no one can take BCIS seriously).

Ian was upset this morning, and called me at about 6. Talked with him for a little bit until he calmed down, slept, woke up at about 9:30 and spontaneously made up my mind to go see him. So, I did. Went over to his place, pleasantly surprised him and watched Predator 2 (I was absolute out of it most of it; "I thought it was rather strange that he was leaping onto an upside down elevator."); surprised me with a Sock Monkey and made me smile forever on the inside. Had some Polish sausage (forgot what Hank called it; something starting with a K and ending with the syllable 'ba' or some'in'rotterhednvsv) and talked with Ian and his step-brother about miscellaneous stuff for, like... an hour and a half. Upstairs, hung out, random, blah.
Danny Glover = you're a pretty badass mo' fo'.

Walked home; read; piano lesson (which sucked, actually... half-dead with sleepiness/hunger, expected to compose own piece by next Monday, no Theory; etc.), and then dinner at Babe's. It wasn't too bad; how you fuck up a House Salad is beyond me, but... it was a good salad. Italian dressing makes the world go 'round after sex and money.

Cassie, her friend Raevin and my mother are out watching The Happening. Dad's downstairs being random, Ian's training at his new job (hooray), and... I'm typing a lame journal entry. Bah.

Jasmine's encouraging. I can freaking get my act together, gawdammit. She's apparently in a relationship, and I can't help but feel myself get all girly and nosy.
Dylan less so. I was fairly surprised that he added me in practically no time. If you're going to be impersonal, then why attempt to contact me all over again anyways? I'm trying, but I'm nervous.

Nervous and wavering.

For the Place of Knowing

Mood: Less-than-discouraged.
Music: "Inner Universe" - Yoko Kanno

4chan and Gurochan aren't appealing. Enough said.
Damn Japanese and their obsession with tentacle rape. Shiver.

Anyways, not too dynamic of a day.

Met someone new (don't know his name yet; but, gimme time. I'll find out). Hung out with Nicky, Addison, and Francey while dad and Jay were attempting to install the ceiling fans into my and my sister's bedrooms (apparently, on the little panel-bob, it states that my bedroom is BEDROOM NUMBAH THREE). Kind of neat, I s'pose. My room will no longer be horribly hot in the evenings. Kind of gross.
Ended up watching Eight Legged Freaks, too. Good flick.

Ian came over a bit past four o' clock after his eight-hour-long Six Flags orientation. His uniform is an insane hi-liter yellow collar, tan shorts, and a terrible orange name tag. Some of the policies are absolutely ridiculous.

Ended up watching Vampire Hunter D and Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust. It's easy to say that the sequel is much better... sadder by far, but no doubt closer to the novelization. Boyfriend thought that the first was random and the heroine whiny (Doris Lang was NOT that whiny in the book, I promise), but thought that the second one was good 'n' interesting. Smiles for everyone, no doubt. He awaits the book tacitly but eagerly.

Bah, I love his haircut. <3 Ate my wasabi chips, and got funny looks. Not too bad, I suppose. The spice itself upon sliding it into your mouth gives you a guzzling-down-cleaning-fluid sensation, but after a while it is not too bad at all. Nobody else liked it. Sad. Tomorrow's the last day of freedom before summer school officially begins. Going to relish tomorrow's freedom of work and school. I need it. Travis and I need to think of something to do this week. It would be more than badass if we could get together and do something spontaneous and awe-inspiring. We're good at that.

Want to keep in contact with Dylan and Jasmine, for sure. The former seems caustic and rigid at this point (and I am too, no doubt; not so much caustic as rigid, but still) but Jasmine is willing to go forward. So am I.

Facebook = future buddy, perhaps. A side-buddy. Like one of those anthropomorphic trophies that heroes cart around with them in all of their silly adventures in sci-fi shows. Strange shows.

I fear I'm overbearing. Hope I'm paranoid.

Cherry Chapstick.

Mood: Insomniac.
Music: "I Kissed a Girl" - Katy Perry

So, today was a much better than yesterday... when I was being unbelievably, undoubtedly irrational, quick to judge, and unforgiving. It's actually quite a pity... perhaps I should extend more chances... after all, he has not done anything to me just yet. Give him time and he might, but until then my personal confidence in him about how he will handle himself and me simultaneously is less-than-more.

Anyways, today was a rather pretty day.

Because of the sleeping pills that I have been taking recently, I've been sleeping longer (and unfortunately harder), and therefor I am sleeping in later. Ian was upset that we could not get together promptly at ten o' clock this morning, but you know what? Yeah. This son-of-a-bitch was still in bed.
I can tell you now that I had no desire to wake up. At all. I was very sad that he woke me up at 9:30. So, slept in a little bit later and finally managed to tug myself out of my less-than-articulate stupor t' shower. EmoSpaced for a bit, read PMs (and sort of felt bad about my Dylan-esque tirade; I need to give him a chance, it's been over a year and a half), read Vampire Hunter D, and...

Ian got a haircut. :D

Ian picked me up, went to Target and got myself some goodies... went back to his place for a little bit, then went to go see Kung Fu Panda (which was cute; made me smile extensively); went into World Market afterwards and got myself some more sugary goodness, and then finally trekked our way down the short road to Mimi's Cafe. Very tasty... discovered that I love hot sauce. A lot. Even if I am insanely white and can hardly stomach salsa. Very good.
Went back to his place and ended up watching Kung Pow!, which was epic in its own silly way ("I am a magician! Your clothes are RED!"). Went upstairs too his room and hung out for a bit, being silly... it was fun. I actually enjoyed myself a lot. Nice to finally be out of the house and interact with someone that you weren't directly related to.

So, yes, today, I managed to buy myself:

• Two bags of shrimp-flavored chips (one has wasabi, the second doesn't)
  
• Three bags of Smarties
• Double-Stuff Oreos
• "Jumbo" Box of Nerds
• Two Bags of Japanese Cracker Mix
• Deluxe Bag of Pocky
• Almond Pocky
• Rasberry Gummies (Japanese)
• Butter Cookies
• Lemon Tea Cookies
• Strawberry/Chocolate Orinios (Japanese)

I am set for at least a freaking month. Anatha = content.
In more obvious news, I'm having trouble sleeping It's 2:26 in the morning, and I have no inclination to sleep. Dad's downstairs watching Grindhouse, and here I am doing a blog entry. My sister and mother have managed to slip away elsewhere. Lucky them.

Oh, and just got finished reading the first three chapters of Black Butler. I can easily say that I would not mind having a Sebastian of my own at my beck and call without feeling like I'm becking and calling him at all. Sweet, intelligent, handsome (for a cartoon character, I guess; hard to make a manga's protagonist ugly, innit?), etcetera. Very nice.

So, yeah. Nice day. :D

Watch Me Faster

Mood: Awake; nonchalant.
Music: "For Always" - Josh Groban [Live]

So.
Added Aryn on EmoSpace.
Talked to Jasmine about why I've been gone for a year and a half yesterday.
Talked to Dylan back and forth yesterday.

I've reconciled with my past (somewhat; I feel like there should have been a flare of chastisement from Jasmine)... and... I guess nothing will ever be the same. Sad.

Um, Vampire Hunter D = amazing.

Going to Jay and Sandy's tonight; Ian and I are spending our 1.5 year anniversary together tomorrow afternoon, and... hooray. It's nice.

All Stars, All Halos He Curled Under My Arm Like a Seed.

Mood: Upbeat; Eager.
Music:

Paris is up. Paris is on. Paris is open.

So, I found Aryn on MySpace, and I almost had a.) an extreme fit and b.) a heart attack. Not in that order, though. I'm... extremely happy to see that she's still alive. Somewhere. She's off in college in Minnesota, and... I'm absolutely bewildered, and so happy, and so upset.

So yeah.

I'm in an extremely social and talkative mood right now, though. I'm so.. hyper. Excited.
And I'm practically under house arrest. Hooray.

I'm in the middle of reading Vampire Hunter D: Vol. I by Hideyuki Kikuchi. I'm not even a hundred pages in, and I already love it... like, there's something about the way how it's written, I'm absolutely sure. It's just so pretty, even though it's a translation (translations can be extremely skewed sometimes, so perhaps you can easily understand my happiness).

Past few days = reading Kafka and Vampire Hunter D... EmoSpace... TW... texting Ian and occasionally Nathan... oh, and I don't know if I mentioned this, but my zombie night the other day was a greater success than I had initially expected it to be. Emily got to sleep over, and I have to admit, I was thrilled. That was the first sleep over I have had in years... eeeeeeeeeeee.
So, yeah.

Good few days. Good mood.
Trying to muster up the nerve to send something to Jasmine and Dylan, though. I'm wondering how they're doing, too. Step 1: Aryn. Step 2: Jasmine. Step 3: Dylan.

Step 4: FULLY overcome my fear.

Anike.

Mood: Awake; Aspiring.
Music: "Come On Eileen" - Save Ferris

So, my zombie get together thing was on Thursday.
And, it was amazing. I enjoyed myself like crazy. :D

And.. Anike is here. How crazy.

School's out.
Going to be working more... which means more cash. >:D

And... hooray.
Oh, so in my Kafka book, I'm reading the story "In the Penal Colony", and it is absolutely amazing. I freaking love it, it's so creepy. Well, not creepy, but so... German. Almost Russian. BAH, so amazing.

Chromodoris Coi: Sea Slug

Species: Originally described from Vietnam, it is well-known throughout the tropical western Pacific. The central region of the mantle is outlined by a sinuous purple line, a feature it has in common with a probable sibling species from the Indian Ocean, Chromodoris gleniei. The major points of difference are that in Chromodoris gleniei the central region is orange-brown with dark markings, while in C. coi the central region is a dull brown, sometimes with a darker mottling. Around the mantle edge of C. coi there is also a thin purple line, present only around the anterior end in C. gleniei. In both species, the underside of the anterior end of the mantle is deep purple, and in both species the whole of the mantle edge flaps rhythmically up and down as the animal crawls along, as can be clearly seen in the bottom right photo.

Hyperia Galba

Mood: Excited.
Music: "Beautiful Boy" - Ben Harper

I am so excited.
Marine Biology = Best. Job. Ever.

Crustacea, Hyperia galba, White Sea Biological Station

Females are 0.08–0.18 in (2–4.5 mm) long; males are 0.06–0.24 in (1.5–6.0 mm) long. Due to their massive eyes compared to their small body, these amphipods are placed in the infraorder Physocephalata ("large head"). Males have elongated first and second antennae. Both sexes have large eyes that take up most of the head. Body is a pale brown, with maroon eyes. Feed on the gelatinous zooplankton they are frequently found living upon. They are also found in food pouches of jellyfish, where they feed on food collected by the jellies. Females with eggs are most common in the spring, and young hatch in the summer. Newly hatched juveniles look very much like their parents. No one knows where the released young spend their time until they enter the adult population.

When I Laughed as a Child and Wore My Own Flesh

Mood: Awake; Unusually optimistic.
Music: "Stay Loose" - Belle & Sebastian

Comics like that are such a relief to me... it's so nice to know that there are people out there that have this kind of sense o' humor... the world would be so much less interesting without these online comic strips... yeah, some are terrible, but on the other hand... they're ingenious.

Haven't done anything too productive today... finished the Fruits Basket anime series today for the first time (I've never watched the full thing; just about half of it... I'd forgotten how good good anime was... yeah, that made sense, I promise). Meant to read some Kafka goodness, but I never got around to it. Need to get around to finishing Basil of Baker Street too and putting it back up on my bookshelf safely.

Went to Logan's Steakhouse for dinner, and got disappointed in my parents. I don't like listening to them talk to each other. It's despicable. It's wrong. They're cruel people one-on-one. Condescending, cruel people.

Don't have to go to school tomorrow, and I'm just going to read the entire afternoon away... maybe work on my Whitman piece for Oral Interp, but blah... I dunno. Not sure just yet... need to get ready for the Latin quiz, too. Icky as hell.

Travis, get back to town. Else I'll beat'choo and stuff. D: